Sage
04-22-2004, 11:37 AM
Feeling kind of poopy today,
so thought I'd share it with the rest of you.
(Isn't that what friends are for?)
LOL
There is nothing seriously wrong-
I'm just feeling as though my life is mired in this mundane
routine that has me up to my eyeballs taking care of
everyone else's needs before my own.
(It's called: "Being A Working Mom")
There is one thing that has happened that is good-
my ex has a girlfriend!!
I know that might seem weird for me to be happy
about that, but I am.
I met her last Sunday and she is very sweet.
And for those of you that think I am blue because my
ex is with another-
uh no, this is a very good thing.
If anything, I am down in the dumps because I don't have
a special man in my life, but no way is it because the ex
is dating someone.
I hope things work out for them.
Actually I did run into the man of my dreams
the other day at the mall in the parking lot.
Not sure of his age- maybe 35 or older, but he sure was
a handsom man!
He even spoke to me with a little sparkle in his eye.
(He asked me where Hollywood Video was...Whoo-hoo!)
LOL
I looked good too, had my make-up on and my hair
wasn't pulled back in a tired ponytail,
(like it usually is), and I had some nice clothes on,
(not my work attire).
The chance was there to make a connection for sure!
But then my two teens walk up to the van,
(I had taken them with me to get new shoes),
and they were caught up in a fullfledged
obnoxiously loud tiff over who was going to sit
in the front seat and my 8 year old followed right
behind whining about not being able to go to the video arcade.
Oh yes, that sparkle in this dreamy man's eye evaporated
instantly!
::: groan :::
He was gone is a flash!
I was totally deflated, (and very annoyed at my kids).
They don't normally act that atrocious,
but I barked at them all the way home for it anyway.
I don't know what I would have done in the
situation if my kids hadn't been there-
but I just might have been bold enough to ask him
out for a drink or cup of coffee.
(What do I have to lose in asking?)
My job has been demanding of late and the house isn't
as tidy as I would like it.
Just seems like everything I do is "on the run"
and there is no time for doing much else than duty, duty duty!
The gardens need tending to, the kids need tending to,
the laundry is a mountain, the kitchen needs to be repainted,
the windows need a washing and Sarah wants me to
babysit tonight and all weekend.
Don't get me wrong-
I love being with Trinity, but she requires so much
"hands-on" attention. It doesn't leave me much time
for other things that need to get done.
Then when it does seem like I have time for these things,
(which is late at night), I'm an exhausted rag!
I put in a DVD and just veg.
(Not too productive...)
I am just feeling overwhelmed right now.
I have so many things I want to do-
like my writing, and I can't seem to find the time
or the solitude to get them done.
And when I do take the time to write I am racked with
guilt that I am not cleaning something around the house
or doing something for the kids.
(So I just don't write)
The same goes for my cross-stitch projects.
No time.
I got angry at my teens last night and accused them
of using me as a doormat to wipe their feet on
and they were quite offended by that.
It was an extreme thing to say and I shouldn't have
snapped like that.
Guess I am caught up in the cogs of the "Real World"
and I need to adjust my thinking here.
Sitting on the pitty pot is never productive.
Thanks for letting me vent.
(Putting on my "Happy Face" and going to work now...)
<FONT SIZE=5 COLOR=768A76 FACE="Lucida Handwriting">~Sage~ </FONT><img src="http://ChasingDownTheBlue.homestead.com/files/lilfairy.gif">
<FONT SIZE=2 COLOR=Black FACE="Tempus Sans ITC">Even flow,
thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he don't know,
so he chases them away
Someday yet,
he'll begin his life again
Whispering hands,
gently lead him away</FONT>
<FONT SIZE=5 COLOR=Black FACE="Freestyle Script">Pearl Jam</FONT>
so thought I'd share it with the rest of you.
(Isn't that what friends are for?)
LOL
There is nothing seriously wrong-
I'm just feeling as though my life is mired in this mundane
routine that has me up to my eyeballs taking care of
everyone else's needs before my own.
(It's called: "Being A Working Mom")
There is one thing that has happened that is good-
my ex has a girlfriend!!
I know that might seem weird for me to be happy
about that, but I am.
I met her last Sunday and she is very sweet.
And for those of you that think I am blue because my
ex is with another-
uh no, this is a very good thing.
If anything, I am down in the dumps because I don't have
a special man in my life, but no way is it because the ex
is dating someone.
I hope things work out for them.
Actually I did run into the man of my dreams
the other day at the mall in the parking lot.
Not sure of his age- maybe 35 or older, but he sure was
a handsom man!
He even spoke to me with a little sparkle in his eye.
(He asked me where Hollywood Video was...Whoo-hoo!)
LOL
I looked good too, had my make-up on and my hair
wasn't pulled back in a tired ponytail,
(like it usually is), and I had some nice clothes on,
(not my work attire).
The chance was there to make a connection for sure!
But then my two teens walk up to the van,
(I had taken them with me to get new shoes),
and they were caught up in a fullfledged
obnoxiously loud tiff over who was going to sit
in the front seat and my 8 year old followed right
behind whining about not being able to go to the video arcade.
Oh yes, that sparkle in this dreamy man's eye evaporated
instantly!
::: groan :::
He was gone is a flash!
I was totally deflated, (and very annoyed at my kids).
They don't normally act that atrocious,
but I barked at them all the way home for it anyway.
I don't know what I would have done in the
situation if my kids hadn't been there-
but I just might have been bold enough to ask him
out for a drink or cup of coffee.
(What do I have to lose in asking?)
My job has been demanding of late and the house isn't
as tidy as I would like it.
Just seems like everything I do is "on the run"
and there is no time for doing much else than duty, duty duty!
The gardens need tending to, the kids need tending to,
the laundry is a mountain, the kitchen needs to be repainted,
the windows need a washing and Sarah wants me to
babysit tonight and all weekend.
Don't get me wrong-
I love being with Trinity, but she requires so much
"hands-on" attention. It doesn't leave me much time
for other things that need to get done.
Then when it does seem like I have time for these things,
(which is late at night), I'm an exhausted rag!
I put in a DVD and just veg.
(Not too productive...)
I am just feeling overwhelmed right now.
I have so many things I want to do-
like my writing, and I can't seem to find the time
or the solitude to get them done.
And when I do take the time to write I am racked with
guilt that I am not cleaning something around the house
or doing something for the kids.
(So I just don't write)
The same goes for my cross-stitch projects.
No time.
I got angry at my teens last night and accused them
of using me as a doormat to wipe their feet on
and they were quite offended by that.
It was an extreme thing to say and I shouldn't have
snapped like that.
Guess I am caught up in the cogs of the "Real World"
and I need to adjust my thinking here.
Sitting on the pitty pot is never productive.
Thanks for letting me vent.
(Putting on my "Happy Face" and going to work now...)
<FONT SIZE=5 COLOR=768A76 FACE="Lucida Handwriting">~Sage~ </FONT><img src="http://ChasingDownTheBlue.homestead.com/files/lilfairy.gif">
<FONT SIZE=2 COLOR=Black FACE="Tempus Sans ITC">Even flow,
thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he don't know,
so he chases them away
Someday yet,
he'll begin his life again
Whispering hands,
gently lead him away</FONT>
<FONT SIZE=5 COLOR=Black FACE="Freestyle Script">Pearl Jam</FONT>