xoxo, the latest on my ym (friend)

I want to share the latest about my ym friend. To refresh everyone, I have a ym best friend of 2 years that is 19. I have fallen for him big time and he knows how I feel, I told him a few months ago. He is now out of school and graduating tomorrow.

Last week he poured his heart out to me and told me that he had suddenly been able to acknowledge his feelings and share them with a lot of his friends. He also said that he was disappointed because he wasn't able to share with all of his friends at that time. I think because of graduating and his future looming ahead, he is suddenly overwhelmed by all these emotions.

He also said that he thought he had feelings for a friend of his (a girl his age) but that she is going on/off with one of his friends. He also said that no matter what he did, it wasn't working out and that he was just going to forget about it. At first, I wondered why he would tell me that since he knows I am in love with him. I am not sure if he was hurting and wanted me to know or if he wanted to let me know that he was letting it go or what, I can't figure that one out.

I had bought him a beautiful watch for graduation because he loves watches and he and I had a huge discussion one night about them and he said he can tell a lot about a person from looking at their watch. I asked him to explain and he made several excellent points about it. (He is so smart and observant!)

I had sent him a pic of a watch just to get a dialogue going so I could feel out what kind of watch he would like. He really liked gold watches with a black face, a clean look with no chronographs and a loose band. I found a perfect watch online and it was exactly what he wanted plus it has a little diamond on it which is the one thing I wanted it to have. When I received it, I took it to a local jeweler and had his initials and 2004 engraved on the back.

I wasn't sure when I would give it to him because I have really backed off with inviting him over and such because everyone had advised me to be patient and give him plenty of space and time.

Last Sunday we were talking online and he suddenly had to go, he said that his family was going crazy and that he didn't know why. I was really worried about him because I didn't see him online the next day. On last Tuesday, I was (at work) getting a file and had my back to the door. When I turned around, he was standing there. I was shocked to see him.

He looked kind of rough and sad and I just wanted to put my hands on his face or give him a hug because he looked so sad. I told him to come into my office. He asked me when I was going to lunch and I told him. He said he wanted to come over. (I go home at lunch because I only live 5 min. from work).

He came over and we talked for about an hour, he told me that his parents had gotten into an argument and that they tried to pull him into it and when he wouldn't take sides, they started taking their anger out on him, so he left. He had been staying at a friend's house since then.

I told him I wanted to give him his graduation gift and asked him to close his eyes. I sat by him. I wanted to put the watch on him but decided that may be too forward so I just took the top off the box and handed it to him. He opened his eyes and...

He was so thrilled with that watch! His face lit up and he just kept admiring it and saying how perfect it was. He was comparing it to his other watch. He said he thought it was too expensive of a gift. I told him that it was not too expensive and that graduation is a big deal so he deserves a nice gift, lol. I told him, "it's not like it's a 4th of July gift or something" and we both laughed. He kept thanking me. I was so happy that he loved it so much.

When it was time for me to go back to work, I just stood up and walked to the door and was getting ready to open it to let him out. He walked up to me and put his arms around me and gave me a hug! :D FIRST TIME EVER. I was thrilled beyond compare, lol. Talk about high on love, geez. :p I have hugged him before two times a few months ago but that was through my initiation. I know it's just a hug, but to me it was everything.

Here is the other thing, I went to bed early last night because I was so tired from this week's activities. I woke up a little after 2:00 am and got online. (I rarely ever do this) Immediately after I got on, he came online. He immediately started talking to me. I couldn't believe it because this happened the same way about two weeks ago. He doesn't usually get online in the middle of the night either. We talked for about 1 1/2 hrs. Of course I love to believe it was fate. (that's the romantic in me).

So, that is an update on my situation. I feel a little sad today because I miss him so much. Why do I miss him when I just saw him this week and talked to him a few times? I don't know. :(

xoxo

1love,

You're such a sweet, sweet woman. You have a great attitude towards things and that makes you really special in my eyes. :)

Is your ym going to stay at his friends? Or is he going back home? Do you know? That's gotta be tough for him, though, huh? :(

You know I have been cheering for you, and I will continue to do so. I soooo want to give you a hug, too! Here it goes...

XOXOXOXO

Thank you sooo much Elle!

I feel the same way about you. My ym did go back home that day and he says things seem ok right now. I feel so bad for him that at this time when he has so many things going on in his life, that his parents would do that to him. From what I gather, they are not very supportive of him.

It was so funny one time he said his mom keeps making baked potatoes and everytime she will say "aren't you going to eat a potato?" and he says "I always tell you, I hate baked potatoes". Then he told me "I know you would remember I don't like baked potatoes", lol. I thought that was the funniest thing.:p


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hahaha Yep, it is. And I'm sure you wouldn't forget that one. Actually it would be kind of funny if you guys end up together and then one day you just said something like "honey, I prepared your favorite dish: baked potato." Then serve a meal he really likes, of course. :D

I'm glad he's back home and things are ok. I'm not surprise to hear that his parents are not supportive and that kind of thing. As I've mentioned before, I know a lot of teenagers through the game that I play, and many of them have opened up to me a great deal. It never ceases to shock me how many of the parents if not most of them appear to be clueless about their children and their lives. :( It's tough enough to go through your teen years... but to do so with certain types of parents can be that much tougher. He's lucky to have you in his life. I have no doubt that you have already given him much love and support through your friendship.

I'll keep packing and cheering for you. hehe

originally posted by Elle

Actually it would be kind of funny if you guys end up together and then one day you just said something like "honey, I prepared your favorite dish: baked potato." Then serve a meal he really likes, of course.


That would be the funniest. I even thought of making his birthday cake to look like a baked potato but then decided it wouldn't look very appetizing. :D



keep up w/ that packing!:)

1love,

I agree with Elle...what a lovely, sweet, thoughtful lady you are. no wonder this young guy is into you!

I hope it works out for you both!

Originally posted by 1love
I feel a little sad today because I miss him so much. Why do I miss him when I just saw him this week and talked to him a few times? I don't know. :(

It has been 8 days today that I have left NH and I miss him so much. I talk to him everyday, see him on the webcam, we call, but it's not the same.

It's called love, 1love! :)

Bella and Nessa~

Thank you for your kindness. You are the sweetest girls ever!;)


Nessa~ I hope things go smoothly for your son and family. It seems like such an emotional time for them. So much to think about for the future.

xoxo

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originally posted by MariaLux

It has been 8 days today that I have left NH and I miss him so much. I talk to him everyday, see him on the webcam, we call, but it's not the same.

It's called love, 1love!


Yes Maria! You know it's love when you count the days...lol. I have done that many times. :p

It must be so difficult to be in an LDR, I feel for you.

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I did it! I went to his graduation all by myself!

A friend was supposed to go with me originally but she wasn't feeling well. I thought about not going. I went back and forth and hem halled around. I finally decided I would just go by myself. He is too important to me not to go. I am not sure if his parents or family went, so I felt like I had to be there, not to mention I wanted to see him. ;)

There were 400 graduates and hundreds of family and friends and it took place in an arena where sporting events are held. So, I really did not think we would see each other. When I was leaving the parking lot and sitting in the long line to leave, I glanced over and saw him walking to his car! He saw me and started waving and cheering. He looked so happy.

I am so glad I went. I know it's love when I am willing to go by myself, lol!:D

Nessa~

I know exactly what you mean. I don't like going places by myself either. That is why I made such a big deal of it. I just kept telling myself that no one would know how I felt on the inside so I just decided to "fake the funk" and look confident!:p

I know about buying the two's too, lol!:D


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I love doing things by myself. Taking a long walk, going for a drive in the country, browsing at the market, going to the movies, sitting in a restaurant with a good book, etc, etc...

It feels very freeing to have no one to please except myself. I know that someday I'll probably have a family and this sort of glorious solitude will be more of a rarity.

I have had some really amazing experiences when I was alone that I would never have had if I'd been with someone else. This has made me very discerning about whom I choose to spend time with -- because I already know I can have a great time on my own. So if whoever I'm with consistently amuses and challenges me more than I can amuse and challenge myself, then they've already passed a big test. :cool:

1love, I think you have the right spirit about this ym of yours. Stretching yourself and growing as a person is never a bad thing. Good luck. ;)

Scarlet~

Thank you. I agree with you about being alone, I spend a lot of time alone through my own choice. Of course, I do get lonely at times. I require alone time because I need it to think, analyze, fantasize, etc. It's going to a place, a huge crowd of people that is hard for me to do alone. Not sure why, after all it's easier to blend with a crowd!:D

Wow, you went to the graduation!!!! Congratulations! Im happy to see how things are progressing for you!!!

And btw...your pic is just adorable. ((hugs))

Jo~

Thank you! :) You are so very kind.



xoxo