Speaking of Saying Goodbye...

*sniffle sniffle*


...today is my last day at my job. I was layed off and well now the time has come to say goodbye to everyone. I wrote a long and professional but still quite funny goodbye letter to those I have come to know very well during my 6 years with that company.

Unbelievable how upset I am today. I feel like I am in mourning, like I lost something that I never thought I would lose.
My boss told me that:

Gina, your consistent positive attitude, uncompromising work ethic, generous spirit and sense of fun and quality knowledge and self directed drive are irreplaceable!!! You will be so missed!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...so it I am so irreplacable, why is it that my exact job on another account came open and she wouldn't put me in it. Instead she brought back her friend who is hated by all? Hmm... makes you wonder when people respond with such words of kindness how much is *really* meant.

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*Today is my last day, I will return my laptop and badge.

*I am going to file for unemployment and ask to see if I can qualify as a dislocated worker since I am unemployed because all my business just took a plane to freaking India

*I washed / vacuumed / did maintenance on my car as I will be driving cross Country early next week.

*Matt graduates tonight

*We will be officially together every day in 3 days now

*We are moving and will be living together officially June 22nd

*My son is starting 8th grade next year

...and yet I feel drained today. Emotionally.
I am doubting things and its stupid, there is no reason to.

Ever have days like this???

Originally posted by First Love
*We will be officially together every day in 3 days now

I don't understand this phrase very well...:confused: Officially because you have to stay together for a minimum of days? Sorry, I got confused!

Gina, I'm sure lots of other doors will open for you, and I'm sorry to see how your boss behaved with you, that sounded hypocritical to me, since she could have kept you but replaced you anyway.

Good luck to you! :)

I don't understand this phrase very well... Officially because you have to stay together for a minimum of days? Sorry, I got confused!

Oh sorry I wasn't very clear.
We will be hiking/camping across country in 3 days, so although we won't *officially* live together until the 22nd of this month, we will be together the whole vacation,

so for all intents and purposes we are together officially in 3 days going forward...

That's what I meant :)
Thanks for Asking!

first love!!!! i hope what i am saying will make sence, i know that God takes people and situations out of my life when they prove no longer useful to my growth, also, your posts are so full of love and acceptance and your boss is right. boy, you are so so fortunate, I have over two years till adam and i are permanently together..... take care and God bless, kitty

I can say from experience that every bad thing that has happened to me has led to an even better thing not so long thereafter...for example - I was very politely told that it might be in my best interest to seek employment elsewhere this year...and now I'm heading to London! So...ya never know. Perhaps there's a wonderful opportunity around the corner for you!

yup....i have days like that...and I 'hear' your post right through my heart. I so AGREE that everytime I've felt drained as if I cant really make one more positive move forward.....God's helped me find it and that all the negative crap has moved me to someplace better than where I was. I've come not to dread the negative, but know that somehow, someway....you ARE where you are MEANT to be at this very moment....even as bad as it may seem at moments.
I wish you a job that you LOVE in the very near future....finances that will hang-on when it is much less than ideal....a future of happiness for you, Matt, and your son....and safe travels! Hugs, Darla

Of course you are in mourning and feel drained, Gina. Losing a job is such a tough thing. It is truly a loss. Do you have another job lined up yet at all? Or still looking?

Either way, get out on that vacation with Matt and enjoy yourself and forget all about the loss you've had to deal with today.

(((( hugs ))))

Maria- thank you so much for the kind words! Yeah I was a little bitter about the whole thing, but now that it's over I feel Ok actually. Writing here has sure helped..!

Kitty- I know how lonely you are for Adam. It makes me realize how fortunate I am that I have Matt close. I know you were planning a wedding and will get to see your beloved soon right? That will be so wonderful for you.

Onetiger- You are so right! I mean, look at you, with a new *man* and on your way with your career! I am sure something will come along for me, or better yet, I will seek it out. I do really feel bad for those left holding the pieces. They quit trimming dead weight about a year ago, now they are really cutting into the core of the company... Those poor people left holding the pieces. Ironically, I found out today that because my company was just bought out, my severance was honored through the old company (8 weeks plus vacation) and the new company who just let go another 30 people only pays out 2 weeks MAX.

Yikes. How's that for good timing for me???

Singalou - Thank you so much for your wishes. I just had my 30,000 mile tune up and my car is purring and ready to go! I think we are going to have a blast for sure. I really can't wait to meet some of the folks in Saint Louis - Very Very Excited~.

WhiteRose - Thanks Sweetheart! I think I will enjoy, and when I get tense I just keep taking another deep breath and think of all those who are less fortunate. I had a loss but I will have many more GAINS ;) .
I don't have anything lined up yet, I figured I would just travel first and then worry about it when I came back.

Financially, I am all set for a good 7 months before I have to worry. So hopefully I find something by August, at least that is my hope! I can't say I'm upset that I get to spend the summer with my son though (*gee darn...* LoL)
So there is one big bonus!!


Oh BTW ----- MATT IS GRADUATING TONIGHT!!! So... You guys.... NO MORE HIGH SCHOOL JOKES! LoL He's a college Student!

*GIANT HUGS TO YOU ALL*
I appreciate this site, and you kind members. You are all the best! Loves

-Gina

Gina...

I hope your trip is wonderful....and enjoy that time off for all it's worth. Make some really great memories....

And hey, take pics of your trip! We would love to see them!

Take care, and will look forward to hearing all about it.