Stratocaster
07-10-2004, 07:23 AM
Hi yall! Great to find this site. I thought I was a little crazy until I found people with similar experiences. I am from the UK so that might explain it!
My story...I am a youthful, single 47 year old, father to a beautiful girl of 3 1/2 years. Up until this year I have tried to work with her mother to go forward as a family, didn't work, probably for the best. Also in the last couple of years, I have discovered that I was adopted, threw up lots of issues about the nature of family and deep personal issues, which I won't saddle you with (unless there are folks who may wish to PM about that issue or whatever).
A few months ago I met , thru my work as an instructor, a beautiful young woman, 23. Thought nothing of it as I work with a lot of young people, particularly female and I have a strong sense of responsibility towards them. There are enuff wolves out there, I don't wish to be one of them.
However, as the lessons progressed she made it quite obvious that she was attracted to me, verbally I hasten to add! I was gobsmacked! I can be quite shy in those situations but it made my little heart sing.
We would txt each other and I was amazed at how she felt. It was platonic and seemed to be based on an emotional connection which became a very powerful chemistry, which was new to both of us.
We had a drink after one of our lessons and she told me how much she enjoyed it and could we do it again. That turned into a date, a very perfect picnic I organised, again platonic but with an underlying tension, that chemistry again (not imagining that, she told me how powerful it felt for her).
She had a vacation planned for the following week and txted me and sent me a card telling me how much she had enjoyed her special day and that she was thinking of me always.
Her communication became more intimate during the week, then suddenly stopped. When she returned she emailed me to say that she was on cloud 9 about our connection but she couldn't handle the age gap. She told me how she wanted to love me and expressed things that I guess I have always wanted to hear.
Realising that this was going to be difficult, I tried to do the right thing and backed off and respected her wishes. It was the first time I cursed my age, not for long because it makes me what I am.
I am left with the memory of a perfect day and a woman who appreciated me for who I am. In return I found someone who I could accept completely. A big learning curve for both of us.
My question is , was this a 'crush' or the real deal? Sometimes I think one thing and then the other. Any thoughts?
My story...I am a youthful, single 47 year old, father to a beautiful girl of 3 1/2 years. Up until this year I have tried to work with her mother to go forward as a family, didn't work, probably for the best. Also in the last couple of years, I have discovered that I was adopted, threw up lots of issues about the nature of family and deep personal issues, which I won't saddle you with (unless there are folks who may wish to PM about that issue or whatever).
A few months ago I met , thru my work as an instructor, a beautiful young woman, 23. Thought nothing of it as I work with a lot of young people, particularly female and I have a strong sense of responsibility towards them. There are enuff wolves out there, I don't wish to be one of them.
However, as the lessons progressed she made it quite obvious that she was attracted to me, verbally I hasten to add! I was gobsmacked! I can be quite shy in those situations but it made my little heart sing.
We would txt each other and I was amazed at how she felt. It was platonic and seemed to be based on an emotional connection which became a very powerful chemistry, which was new to both of us.
We had a drink after one of our lessons and she told me how much she enjoyed it and could we do it again. That turned into a date, a very perfect picnic I organised, again platonic but with an underlying tension, that chemistry again (not imagining that, she told me how powerful it felt for her).
She had a vacation planned for the following week and txted me and sent me a card telling me how much she had enjoyed her special day and that she was thinking of me always.
Her communication became more intimate during the week, then suddenly stopped. When she returned she emailed me to say that she was on cloud 9 about our connection but she couldn't handle the age gap. She told me how she wanted to love me and expressed things that I guess I have always wanted to hear.
Realising that this was going to be difficult, I tried to do the right thing and backed off and respected her wishes. It was the first time I cursed my age, not for long because it makes me what I am.
I am left with the memory of a perfect day and a woman who appreciated me for who I am. In return I found someone who I could accept completely. A big learning curve for both of us.
My question is , was this a 'crush' or the real deal? Sometimes I think one thing and then the other. Any thoughts?