Boyfriend went back to school

Well he left last week, I saw him a week ago today, and it hasn't been hard at all.......till tonight. He called me after his volleyball practice and we talked for about 20 mins. He was leaving to go meet some friends out. This is what is hard I have two situations going on. 1st he is 9 years younger than I am. I am 30 he is about to turn 22. AND he is away at school finishing his last year. Am I dreaming? He is so much younger and its showing now that he is in his environment. I am okay with it, really I am. But, I wonder if when he gets back from school, will he be in this going out mood all the time. When is it that he will want to settle, not just with me but in general. I am still a party girl, but he is ultra party guy right now. I think back to when I was 22, it was a blast and a blur. But, to be back at that age partying and doing what he is doing, I don't think I can relive it again. I am a full time professional with goals and friends that like to stay in on Saturday night and watch movies. We go out occasionally but, how am I going to do this? I promised myself I wasn't going to break up with him purely on what "might" happen. Cause thats what I normally do. He is such a good person with a huge heart, and never ever makes me question his feelings or motives for me.

Don't you think that once he's out of college, those partying days will end? I would think they would. I think most of us took advantage of being able to party when we were in college, but soon afterward as we settled into our careers we began to settle down. So, don't give up on him yet and don't worry about "what ifs".

My old motto: Worry is the darkroom where negatives develop. :)

Well, I guess I am basing it off of what his friends who have been out of school for a few years are like now. They are very girlfriend oriented so that makes me happy but they do like to drink and go out, but now that I think about it, most times they go out, its a huge group of friends, and they all have their girlfriends with them. I think I have a case of the freak outs again, I need to just stop it.

Thanks for your thoughts and words. It does help to talk to others that are going through this. I just feel that I can't give anything back to the board right now and I feel bad. Maybe once I have more practice at this LDR I will be able to give my two cents in and help someone out.

On another note, I just went to my yearly gene exam and my doctor lectured me for a half hour about my lifestyle and how women my age usually stop going out so much to the bars (baahs as I call it) and they are usually taking care of themselves, she basically told me I am living like I am in my 20s, it took all my might not to tell her how old my YM is. LOL, she basically told me I need to get new friends and join a book club. Sorry, but I am a little too wired and hyper to join a book club. Then she told me when I am angry or upset I should write in my journal or go for a long walk instead of grabbing a cigarette. Just to inform everyone too of something I did not know. I usually get a battery of STD tests every year, just to get them, and she mentioned I should be vaccinated for hepititis, has anyone done this? Am I the only one in the free world to have heard of this? She said it is very common with people in their 30-40s, but the 20 year olds have mostly been vaccinated already. I had no clue!!!

Here's some information for you on the indications for the Hepatitis Vaccine.

http://www.vaccineinformation.org/hepb/qandavax.asp