I swear my love life can be a soap opera...

So ya'll remember M? If not...then check out I hope this starts a trend... (http://www.agelesslove.com/boards/showthread.php?s=&threadid=12501) Anywho...M and I have remained really good friends this whole time. Really an outstanding guy.

So, since school has started, and he's teaching....we hardly talk or see each other any more. So last night we went out for some drinks...and we're talking about our lives, what's going on, work and such. Then he asked about my dating world. So I started to tell him. Then I asked him about his...and for some reason, I felt weird. I didn't want to know once he started talking about it. Then I started looking at him...I know that if we were to date, somewhere a long the line I'd get tired of him...but still...I wondered why things couldn't work between us. Is it odd or weird to be feeling a hint of jealousy? I'm not sure if it's jealousy...but part of me wants to still date him....uh...like I said...I hate dating.

Hey Babes...

Well thats the thing...we were never boy/girlfriend...we were jsut dating. I only dated him for a couple of months...but it was still weird. I went out w/ him and his new gal the other night. She's really sweet, and really nice....so grrr. But at least I've managed to maintain his friendship. He calls us Jerry and Elaine...lol...silly.

Well

ask God what he thinks if this is jealously with M or you are clueless about your personal life, we all get like that at times but now you need to rely on the Lord for everything. okay? I hope this helps;)

It's hard to have your head straight when you're lonely. (I hope I'm not being presumptuous.) If you don't have anyone in your life right now, then perhaps you are looking back to the possiblities because there is no where look ahead. I read your original posts about M. He doesn't sound like a guy you want to really be with. I'm guessing this is just lonliness talking.

One of the best things I ever did for myself was to start a journal. I can't tell you how invaluable it has become. It allows me to put down my thoughts and feelings and events, then days, weeks, months, years later, reflect back. If you look back carefully to how things were with M, I'm guessing you'll see that you're just letting your "lack of man" get the better of you.

I've read some of your posts and you seem like an insightful woman with a lot to offer. You're picture is also wholesome and pretty. The right guy should beg to be with you. Don't settle for less!

You seem like such a sweet girl, and very positive. What Barbra said about a journal is a really good idea. I don't have much time to myself when I get home, but I do have some time at work, and a really great place to start a journal would be Oprah.com. They have all sorts of ideas for journals there. Expressing yourself is the most releasing thing. I hope that you find the right guy for you, but I wouldn't settle, you seem way to nice to settle. I have a feeling that Mr. Right will come around when you least expect it. Mine did. Keep your chin up and keep smiling.

When I was in high school, I had a very brief relationship with a (slightly - no age gap!) younger girl who was (and has remained) a very good friend of mine. This is actually the only case in my personal history where I was the one who chose to end the relationship, because although I liked her very much, there was no spark there.

There were many times during the years that followed when I questioned that decision - and almost all of them were when I was feeling really down in the dumps and lonely. What you're feeling, Em, is perfectly normal. But trust your judgment - if you figured out it wouldn't work, you were probably right.

Thanks Rhad...good to see you around again.
We miss you.
Stop by more often.
Oh...and you're right ;)

Originally posted by EMCAD80
We miss you.

I've missed you guys, too (although most of the people I remember seem to be long gone). I'd have been around a lot more except the building I worked in blocked this site. I've since moved to new facilities (same job, different place), and the network is much less restrictive here.

As for logging on outside of work... let's just say that the last year of my life has been insane.

Should be around semi-regularly now, though.

You better...we are getting prett lonely w/out you here!