30 years apart

Hello,
I have, for the most part, a super duper relationship w/ my bf. But I am somewhat troubled by some "secondary characteristics" of our relationship. For example, he is 55, not working, and lives off a very (and I mean very!) small pension. I work full time and will be going back to school soon. It's as if we are on opposite ends of the continuum: my career is taking off and his has sputtered and died. He would like to find work but it has been hard at his age to "start over" and find a decent-paying job. I'm afraid this my cause resentment down the road. Also, he isn't in the greatest of health. I read about many older men and women on this site who look younger than their age and are fit as a fiddle. Not the case w/ my man, bless his heart! He looks his age, is overweight and diabetic. I know there are no guarantees in life, but the annoying realist in me tells me that I may be signing up for young widowhood if we were to marry, and I would like to have children someday (with him only! I've never been intimate w/ a man except him and he is my first love and the thought of being w/ another man makes me want to have diahrrea) and don't like the idea of raising a child or teenager (heaven forbid!) alone and without a father.

Yet, when I think of how absolutely in love we are, do these things matter? Thanks in advance.

Even if he loves you now later down the road I believe resentment will set in. Many men like to feel like the bread winner in the family or at least like an equal. Having children with him may not be a great idea until you get his health stable if you do not want to raise them alone. My grandfather had a lot of issues when he was younger (65) and then he started to eat right and work out. He is still alive twenty years later. He has twelve children with the same women and they are twenty years apart. It can work out. I wish you the best.