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An amazing thing has happend to me that I know could be rare. I have been going through a huge slump. I couldn't find the reason. There have been moments in my life where some tornados hit.... and I was the only tree left standing. My life is a gentle breeze.... yet the winds in my heart have been blowing. It affected everything. And yet there was no pinpoint. Strange circumstances led to me getting real with my "baby- daddy" and his incredible girlfriend. And after 5 years of silence...except for the necessary words(when are you picking her up? when do you want me to do the same), we talked. I realized I had forgotton the love I had for him.I misunderstood what happend. I was so bitter and tried hard to give that up, because I knew better... but with no communication, I fell short. What happend had it's reasons. I DO know love as much as I thought . I doubted him over actions. He is the same age as me... but younger at heart than any 20 year old. He loves life. And I have wanted that 20 year old mentality ever since. Did this lead me to seek younger men? yep... in a way. But what I realized through all of this is that there is an innocence in real love. A beautiful realization that every day is new. I forgot this. It DOES not matter what age anyone is to me. What matters is that they see me...know me, and want to understand more. That they ask questions, and that I will answer them with confidence. If in all my life, I only find this in friends.... I know now that I had true love once. And it lives breathes and carries on. I want happiness for him. And in that I find it myself. Love lives through everything. It is within you.

Thank you for sharing this!


{{There have been moments in my life where some tornados hit.... and I was the only tree left standing. My life is a gentle breeze.... yet the winds in my heart have been blowing. It affected everything. And yet there was no pinpoint. }}
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What a very good description of what many of us also have felt....but could not put into words. I am glad that you see things so differently now, because bitterness/disgust/whatever it was that you felt could only lead to unhappiness and misery. The road to a long journey begins with a single step...

Wow! That's an awesome realization. Thanks for sharing:)

I am so glad you posted this. And I am glad you have found peace in your situation.

I am a true believer that bitterness can consume a person and literally eat them up. When a relationship turns sour, we need to let it go and all that goes with it. Put it in the past and move forward. Carrying any negative parts of that relationship forward with us is not healthy. I have many reasons to be bitter about my ex-husband, but I chose not to take that route. In my mind, that would have been like giving him some power over me and my life and I wasn't about to let that happen. I, too, have had many tornados and I have learned that I can withstand whatever winds hit me.

Good luck to you and your newfound freedom. Because when you reach that level of thinking, you are truly free. :)

Beautiful post. Strength shows in your words and feelings, yet a kind soul too.

Thank you for sharing with us this wonderful accomplishment in your life, many people pass their entire life without realizing what you did.

Sending you positive thoughts~

Thanks for sharing that...((hugs))

Nice post, Braxton. Isn't it just delicious when we let go of the hurt and resentment and embrace the good memories and the love? :)