jara
02-19-2003, 10:02 AM
Hey,
First of all, many, many thanks for your encouragement. I was very scared of 7 seven years age gap and you made me think in a different way about it, I didn't even Know that there were women married to men who are 10 or 20 years younger than them. I like it, it helps me to believe in true love again.
Well, I said that I THINK that my y/m loves me, because... even if he tells me every night, I haven't seen him since December. I know that he is in love with me now, I have no doubt about his feelings, but I can't avoid thinking that he is very young for a serious relationship, and that any pretty girl in a pub could make him change his mind. This sounds stupid, I know, they are my insecurities, but I am scared. I have suffered a lot for love and I don't want to feel so miserable anymore. He says that we should take a chance on, however, I know that he can also see the difficulties.
At the beginning our relationship was based on sex. It was very good for both of us and everything was ok, until he started to talk about feelings around. By the time i had to came back to Spain, we were in love, but from the beginning i had decided that i'd give husband another opportunity. We don't have children, no, but we have nice families who were very happy with our marriage, a nice flat, comfortable life... all these things that would mean everything if there was love, but nothing if it is not.
He was waiting for me in the airport and, in three hours, i changed one mouth for another. I felt very weird, very bad, and couldn't forget my English boy. I told everything to husband, we tried, we were living together for three weeks, and then he moved out. He was disappointed. He had spent three months trying to forget his lover and forcing himself to love me, and I came back with those stories... On the other hand, I was thinking of this y/m all the time. I repeated his name in my dreams (that's what husband told me) and started to see my husband in a different way. Furthermore, I felt still hurt for what he had done to me. It didn't work.
My y/m acted very respectful and loving all that time. He understood my situation and tried to support me. He was very nice.
Now I am living alone. Next week i am going to England to see him for four days and I am happy, but last saturday, his ex girlfriend told him that she wanted him back. He has told me that his heart is with me, but I think that maybe the passion is blinding us, and I have to be generous (as he was before) and understand that perhaps, it's better for him to try with her again. It is his decission anyway, I know that, and I want him, but... everything seems so difficult.
First of all, many, many thanks for your encouragement. I was very scared of 7 seven years age gap and you made me think in a different way about it, I didn't even Know that there were women married to men who are 10 or 20 years younger than them. I like it, it helps me to believe in true love again.
Well, I said that I THINK that my y/m loves me, because... even if he tells me every night, I haven't seen him since December. I know that he is in love with me now, I have no doubt about his feelings, but I can't avoid thinking that he is very young for a serious relationship, and that any pretty girl in a pub could make him change his mind. This sounds stupid, I know, they are my insecurities, but I am scared. I have suffered a lot for love and I don't want to feel so miserable anymore. He says that we should take a chance on, however, I know that he can also see the difficulties.
At the beginning our relationship was based on sex. It was very good for both of us and everything was ok, until he started to talk about feelings around. By the time i had to came back to Spain, we were in love, but from the beginning i had decided that i'd give husband another opportunity. We don't have children, no, but we have nice families who were very happy with our marriage, a nice flat, comfortable life... all these things that would mean everything if there was love, but nothing if it is not.
He was waiting for me in the airport and, in three hours, i changed one mouth for another. I felt very weird, very bad, and couldn't forget my English boy. I told everything to husband, we tried, we were living together for three weeks, and then he moved out. He was disappointed. He had spent three months trying to forget his lover and forcing himself to love me, and I came back with those stories... On the other hand, I was thinking of this y/m all the time. I repeated his name in my dreams (that's what husband told me) and started to see my husband in a different way. Furthermore, I felt still hurt for what he had done to me. It didn't work.
My y/m acted very respectful and loving all that time. He understood my situation and tried to support me. He was very nice.
Now I am living alone. Next week i am going to England to see him for four days and I am happy, but last saturday, his ex girlfriend told him that she wanted him back. He has told me that his heart is with me, but I think that maybe the passion is blinding us, and I have to be generous (as he was before) and understand that perhaps, it's better for him to try with her again. It is his decission anyway, I know that, and I want him, but... everything seems so difficult.