yellowrose 03-04-2003, 11:48 AM :D That sums up where I am at now. Bill and I had a good 11 days. No big fights or anything... just pleasant fun. Since this was not about sex, we were affectionate but not sexual. This really helped me look at the whole picture. About 5 or 6 days before it was time to go home, I became really really homesick. I was pretty miserable although I tried to smile and not let it ruin the trip. I had decided (in talking with my hairdresser), that I loved Bill but was not "IN LOVE" with Bill. I was not going to say anything until I got back from the trip, in case it would cause trouble. Well, the last night there, I caught him in a lie. He said that he was not emailing this other woman at all and as it turns out... he was. So my instincts are good.
I am happy to have this out of my system. I learned some things about me during this whole endeavor. One is that I really do value younger guys with their more open minds and hearts. Bill swore/cussed a lot and I just did not like being around all that negative energy. Being there again was the best thing I could have done to be able to move forward in my life. I am glad to be back... Thanks for all your support. Now I am going to go out and have a great day! See you later! :cool:
Jo-Admin 03-04-2003, 01:33 PM Well my dear YR, you never would have known if you had not taken that chance. You would have wondered forever...
Now you went, you know, and you can move on at peace with yourself and know that you did not pass up anything....
*smiles and hugs* Good for you! Glad your home and that your happy to be home.
Julianne 03-04-2003, 03:52 PM Barb... I'm sorry it didn't work out for you, but you know now without a shadow of a doubt that Bill isn't the man for you. It's nice to have closure to something instead of always wondering 'what could have been'. You certainly don't want a liar.
Glad you're back! :)
Trish... how many pairs of those cement shoes do you have?? ;)
Bella 03-04-2003, 04:34 PM I'm glad you took the chance, glad you had a nice vacation, glad you're happy to be home, and just darn glad you didn't sell and move there right away!
Bless his blowing it after your first visit. Things do tend to work out huh?
yellowrose 03-04-2003, 06:37 PM Trish... aw let's forget the cement blocks... I am happy and at peace. I got to know the REAL guy and that's why I went. He's kind of sad in a way.
Julianne & Joannalee, I did not set myself up this time hoping for a happy ending. Actually, I prayed and asked God to let Bill reveal himself... and he did! His "energy" or whatever changed halfway through the trip... that's when he started emailing the girl back. I knew from his "energy" or whatever that I was not being loved the whole hearted way that I want to be loved. Instead of wanting to fix it.... I just wanted out.
Bella... things do work out. I am disappointed in BILL because I did think that he was a better person than that. He definitely is NOT a man of integrity... that is important to me.
I was so happy to get home to my granddaughter and get her to spend the night with me. The little 17 month old baby stayed all cuddled up in my arms all night long. She loves her Mi'ma very much! Unfortunately, my youngest daughter, the mother, is not making very good choices right now. I am seeing an attorney in the morning to discuss the situation. She is dating/living with a guy that is taking her right down the tubes. I hate seeing her make some of the same mistakes that I made. How we women sometimes lose our common sense because of a man.... so sad.
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Maria 03-04-2003, 06:37 PM Time shows us so many important things. I am glad for you, YR!
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southerngal 03-04-2003, 09:20 PM Hey Barbara,
Yep, it was a very good thing you went back to see Bill. Pretty much everyone agreed we all need to give someone a second chance and you did.. Whether that person hangs themself with it or not is up to them! And he did. So now you can close that chapter and open another one :) But I'm like you - even if it means getting disappointed in the end, I just HAVE to give them one more chance to make sure...before i can go on.
Good luck ;)
Sherry
SnowPrincess 03-04-2003, 09:35 PM Barbara, give it some time..........
Sit and think awhile, you have the choice now weither, to go out there and get a guy, or just relax and enjoy yourself.
Do some great things for yourself.
Enjoy yourself Barbara, ever hear of the game Tripoly? it is fun!
It is not so bad being without a sig. other sometimes, just save up for the right one,.
Time to enjoy yourself Girlfriend!!!
datura81 03-04-2003, 09:38 PM I just wanted to say that I really admire your positive attitude. No matter what others tell you or what happens, you always seem to keep your chin up and a smile on your face, and that's awesome. That's a true sign of strength. Keep on keepin' on!
morficarts 03-06-2003, 06:37 AM Hey YR at least you know who you want and who you don't want in your life, and you don't ever have to wonder "IF Only" anymore. Sounds like you are enjoying the journey. :) Best wishes Terry
kittykat 03-06-2003, 07:19 AM YR ~ sounds like the trip was a success! You enjoyed yourself and came to a resolution! You are a wonderful lady and your positive attitude is very refreshing! *hugs*
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