Four years later.. and five months later.

So, it's been four years since I posted my first thread on ageless (he 46/me 27). Here I am now, alone in my one bedroom apartment, about to meet up (tomorrow) with the ex of five months. We were together. We were engaged. We called it off. We stayed together another year. This July, he broke my heart. Four days before we were supposed to move into our new condo on our four year anniversary. He thought we both needed to figure out what we wanted from our lives. So, I've given us five months of barely talking and never seeing each other and I know deep down it's not enough time, but I'm so stuck. I honestly feel like I've been let go on spring break the past five months. That at some point, you have to face reality again. And, that's tomorrow. I made this meeting happen as he kept pushing it off because I couldn't keep waiting to move on. I just want to yell at him. I know he still loves me and I still love him. Just all of our other obstacles got in the way. He honestly was the one.

And the question is? What do I do with this "meeting" tomorrow? I'm so nervous I want to throw up. Any advice is greatly appreciated. Thank you :(

Have a few stiff ones first, and then go with it.

I hope he does not cancel at the last minute. It seems he has backed out several times, so it seems like a possibility he will no show up..

It sounds to me you need closure, meeting him, you may not even get that, so please be prepared...

Are you going to ask him to get back together?

If you really have not hear from him in 5 months, you really got your answer there. He may love you, but not enough to spend the rest of your lives together.

Sorry if I sound so blunt, but I really like it when someone gives me a reality check.

Wishing you the best.