ionedt
04-06-2003, 03:31 PM
Well, not much has happened in my relationship. He is having more tests this week,it doesn't sound like an operation yet but I will talk to the cardiologist. I am hoping that he may give me abetter understanding as to what is going in. My heart still tells me to stay but my gut tells me to leave at times. I do know life is so short there has been alot of deaths and illnesses lately in my life. I just don't want to in 2 or 5 years to be nursing him when I just started. Normally in a long relationship you stand behind them 100%. My brother-in-law has cancer and is close to the end. My sister-in-law has taken care of him, he is 54. I see this and am confused. I know the world has a ton of people. I guess I would just like to go on like this tell I know 100% if I should marry him. Also, I have been very honest with him. I feel he is hoping and wants the ring to make it real. So, as old as I am I feel like a kid being so indecisive. This dating thing is knew to me, maybe everyone all ages feels like this. But I'm still with him.