Thread: being myself?

Originally Posted by kittyloki

Most of you on here know me by now.
I'm 25 and my hubby is 62. We have a 6 year old daughter together.
I have a hard time being myself.

My husband made good money during his working years and is now disabled. I don't have to work. I still plan on going to school for hair dressing. A lot of people see me as a gold digger. I try to give off the image that I don't care about material things because I don't want people thinking of me like that.

Truth be told I don't like wasting money. My wedding ring is a stainless steel band I got off ebay for $15. But I do like clothes. Most of my clothes are new but a lot are second hand from the Goodwill. I don't wear makeup or jewelry. I have a large collection of headscarves to match my different dresses. I spend about $50 to $100 on clothes every month.

I like nice clothes and shoes. I wish I could wear them without people judging me. Why do I feel the need to make people accept me? geez...

Do not be so hard on yourself. This process of thinking too much about what other people think - I THINK is a process we all go through as we grow older and wiser. I can say for myself that I have my relapses once in a while but I basically stopped thinking about what other people think when I fully realized how much it hurts ME to bend over backwards to do what other people like me to do.

(Caps are meant to be bold letters. It is tideous for me to write on this laptop.)